A Thousand Words Spoken
So many thoughts that words cannot seem to travel from the brain to the mouth. It’s like a lost star that’s travelled through the universe but never to be found. That’s me, I’m that star. An all over the map kinda girl. One thought proceeds to another and to another… And then I lose my train of thought. We have to admit 2020 has been particularly odd. Just like every other year, there’s always good with the bad and the bad with the good. I have to say I learned a lot about people but more so I learned about me (other than me being an all over the map kinda girl).
For one, I’m not strong in my social skills. I honestly couldn’t care less about being around people but I can say the ones I do connect with I devote my all too. Unfortunately with this connection I’m a sucker for punishment. I tend to give more than I receive. I give more chances then it deserves. You know how they say third times a charm…. Yeah that is totally incorrect. The more I give, the more people take and take and take. And I know a lot of people feel this way but is it the truth or is it just how you feel or think? I know this for sure because my family and friends tell me this all the time. Not just one or two friends, it’s more of a flock.
Secondly, people lie. I mean not fib or stretch the truth, they lie. If they were Pinocchio, their nose would probably be elongated. I mean I think at some point we all fib to protect someone but to an extent it needs to stop. I would rather people tell me the truth even if it kicks me down to the ground. I’ll get over it. I feel at this point words have no meaning, it’s all in the actions that gains trust. Eventually the lies will come back to you and you will lose what you thought you gained. Unless you are a narcissist or some kind of ungrateful human.
One big thing I noticed is how we all function differently. This is not a bad thing what so ever. I think its great to be unique. Like they say “you do you”. I’m not an overly big fan of that saying but it is kinda true. Society has chewed us up and taught us that we need to follow societies standards. This is far by the truth and one of the reasons I don’t bother going through my news feeds. In my last writing I spoke about time and how it consumes us and yet we still do not make time for ourselves. Let me refresh the facts of The Mindset of 100 Emotions. You have 24 hours in a day, 365 days, 52 weeks, 8760 hours in a year. Learn to make time. I did. I learned to take 15 mins a day to touch base with friends/family. Either it be a quick hello text, funny meme on Facebook, a quick snap or a telephone call. It’s not always the same person on a daily basis but I rotate. I also take 15 mins in the am to take care of myself and another 15 mins a night. It can range from taking that time to reflect, stretch, wash your face… or even just a bath. Let me add that I didn’t start with 15 minutes right off the bat. It was whatever I could manage with what I had. What I started to do was not look at my phone first thing in the morning or before I go to bed. I give myself at least 20 minutes before. It was a huge habit to break and not an easy one. But I managed. There is nothing better than being present with the people who surround you. That was another harsh lesson I learned.
What I’m saying is you have a present moment…be in it. Life is so unpredictable as 2020 taught us. The struggle is real but the battle you fight is the present moment. If 2020 has taught us anything, it should be to love yourself, take care of yourself and be in the presence of the ones who surround you. If this whole ordeal of the pandemic ever ends, I hope you continue to stay strong on this journey and keep moving in the present to create a future.
Until next time,
Beautiful Ace ❤
